How the Patriarchal Mind Shapes The Sexual 1

The formation of Sexual 1 occurs in childhood in an environment where one parent exercises authoritarian dominance, while the other adopts a submissive role. The child develops a keen perception of this power dynamic. Driven by an innate inclination toward justice and protection, the child identifies with the parent perceived as more vulnerable, oppressed, or submissive, and takes a stand against the more domineering and authoritarian parent.

This pattern of behavior is not simply a demonstration of loyalty; it is a strategy of self-protection. By aligning with the weak parent, the child takes on a role of power that

gives him a sense of security and control. In this process, two distinguishing characteristics of Sexual 1 develop: a deep sense of justice and an aura of omnipotence.

As the child grows into adulthood, these character traits are cemented and expressed as a willingness to challenge authority. Adult Sexual 1 tends to resist authority figures, challenging them, unless they have validated them themselves and consider them fair and legitimate. This attitude reflects a desire for autonomy and to be in a position where they feel in control and protected, evoking the role they took on in childhood to safeguard their emotional well-being and sense of justice:

"My relationship with authority is one of shock, running the risk of always staying. Where he lived, he didn't play with the police; However, whenever he could, he gave them arrogant, derogatory or false answers, for the pleasure of challenging authority. I have always felt on an equal footing with the military, the police and the religious. Until a few years ago, it happened to me that I would go into a church to attend Mass, go ahead and stand up, refusing to kneel because I considered it a humiliating, sheep-like attitude. At school, when I was five or six, I turned my back on the principal when she called me to her office for indiscipline, because I wanted to confront her." — Caterina Rubinat

As a child, they can be subjected to a rigid, harsh, and demanding environment. He assumes responsibilities in the care of his siblings and in household chores, as well as in obtaining the best results at school and in social life, demands to which he responds with seriousness and commitment:

"I have always hated my father's patronizing attitude, which triggered moments of anger in me. But I never had any reaction, I didn't say anything: I didn't have the words; besides, I wasn't allowed to do it." — Caterina Rubinat

"At the age of six, I started the time when I was the man of the family {I lived with my mother and my younger sister} and I always heard that I had to behave like an adult and do things the right way. And I did, without showing much reluctance." — Jurgen Kramer

The child strives to fulfill his duties and focuses his intelligence on excelling to obtain love in the form of recognition and appreciation. He puts duty before pleasure and considers that in this way one sacrifices himself with it, others must also do so. The criterion he imposes on himself is the only possible one, and he despises what he considers mediocrity:

"I was angry because others didn't do things as well as I did. I learned to do things on my own, without much need to ask. I've always made them better than usual. I was a teacher's

assistant, I left myself in charge of the classroom when she left, I helped correct the tests. Firstborn, with a father who was not present and an invasive and very controlling mother, I spent my childhood wanting to please my parents so that they would accept me and fearing to transgress the rules of the house, which resulted in disorderly and transgressive behavior." — Caterina Rubinat

In an environment where parents may be emotionally distant or physically absent, Sexual 1 child faces loneliness and abandonment with remarkable determination. Thus, premature autonomy is born; The child decides that he can and must fend for himself, relying on his own abilities to survive. This forced autonomy implies the creation of an emotional armor, a defense mechanism that allows the child to hide and, over the years, forget his own weaknesses, needs, and fears. Vulnerability is buried under an idealized image of oneself as capable, strong, confident, and independent, detached from the innate need for affection, vulnerability, and openness.

Instead of confronting and fully feeling the lack and loneliness of their childhood, the Sexual 1 perceives themselves as powerful and capable, a perception that is often reinforced and celebrated by their environment. Internal dissociation from his world not only makes him forget his own need for empathy but leads him to adopt a cold posture in relationships, externally the same demand and harshness that he imposes on himself.

"As a teenager I became serious, I didn't laugh at anything. Give it to me tomorrow and I saw that they threw me a balloon party in my room. My father noticed me and put on a show when I was sleeping to draw my attention to the seriousness of the matter. More than getting excited, my jaw dropped: that he wanted to give me a strong message and, of course, note. But instead of appreciating it, I took it as a morality, as a teaching." — Patrick Genard

Gradually, a personality structure is formed that distances you from emotional contact, both with yourself and with others. "I keep a space between myself and others, I often notice an emptiness around me," the Sexual 1 may think. In an attempt to overcome shyness or any sense of weakness, she may have adopted a predominantly masculine stance, leaving aside more archetypal feminine qualities such as tenderness and compassion. "To overcome my shyness, I sold myself to the masculine and did not integrate the feminine. Thus, Sexual 1 is often caught in a cycle of mental work and action, often at the expense of compassionate love and emotional connection. It may happen that the child grows up in an environment of conflict or scarcity that permeates his worldview:

"Since I was a child, I learned that there are good and bad and that we must fight for it. I was formed with a belief system that gave me the power to judge. I know and there is

another who doesn't know, and knowing puts me on a higher level. He had a high sense of responsibility and duty." — Caterina Rubinat

The Sexual 1 often develops a sense of austerity and self-discipline that becomes the core of their moral framework. These moral principles become the cornerstone of their identity, through which they seek to maintain control and perfection in all aspects of their lives. This moral rigidity tends to suppress your natural drive toward pleasure and spontaneity, as these experiences may be perceived as confusing, unpredictable, or potentially dangerous to your sense of control.